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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

The last post

Right.. I guess this is going to be my last post on this blog... So you people won't be reading any of my post here anymore.. That's because I am shifting to another blog!!! YAY!

Well.. Shawn used to call me princess and that is the reason why I created http://princess-sueann.blogspot.com/ . I still love the logo I created for myself and now I have to change it already. Alamak! leceh! (ma fan in chinese, troublesome in english).

My phone has been vibrating a lot today!!!!!!!!!!

It vibrated more than ever! Cos it's been quite awhile that people started texting me so frequently and because of the shocking news that Shawn and me broke up after, to be exact, 5 years, 1 month and 23 days. hmm... So there goes my first boyfriend and welcome my first break up and being single after 5 god damn years!

I'm on leave tomorrow. I took a day leave because before that I planned. Shawn is coming back on the 19th and I want to take a day off so that I could spend time with him. Erm.. Now, I have i all to myself. I'm gonna wake up early in the morning and go for a jog(I seriously need to get rid of the fats I accumulated these 5 years and get toned up!) then followed by a facial at Citispa. It is a great time to pamper myself. :D



Well.. I think u all veery kapo one la. I will tell my story here...


Saturday
I forgot that I had to work that day. I was a blur cock la.

I woke up early because Shawn messaged me the details of the flight and stuff. He will be arriving at 8pm at T1 that night. So yea, thinking that I have no work I went back to sleep. At around 9am, I received a call from workplace. I was still so blur, Racey then said,
"Sueann.. I thought you are supposed to work today? The previous week Sijia already swapped with you right?"

I was like SIAO LIAO!

I faster bathe and took a cab to work and I reach work at 950am. I was still darn sleepy at work aok! Like half asleep while working. -_-

I went home wanted to get some sleep but I was too excited bout Shawn coming back from China after 7 weeks! So i didn't sleep at all. I dolled up myself so that I could impressed him. I took the bus to Yishun to change to another bus to changi airport. I was so late sia. When he landed, I was still in Yishun. Alamak. I very blur cock that day. I thought 855 goes to Changi but it should be 858. I walked around like crazy. In the end I took 39 and head to tampines. Took a cab to the airport and fetch shawn and go to his house. I was so blur ok. Too excited till everything became so blur.

The first time I saw him, I was impressed. He lost so much weight and looking good with his Oakley sunglasses!

He got so much barang barang. he carried by himself sia. people now got big muscles leh.

Accompanied him home and he just put his stuff and we went to eat cos i was eff-ing hungry. The whole day I only ate waffle. Had dinner and he sent me to the bus stop. He couldn't send me homw because he don have concession. We kissed and it was sweet and I went home.

We talked on the phone while I was at mandai cos that place is spooky! With a lake and forest behind me and nobody else and just cars passing by. It was really spooky.

Got home and slept after a good night call from him.



Sunday

Met up at The Cathay we caught two movies cos its the last day for 1 for 1 movie tickets. Shawn paid for it. We caught Fast and Furious 4 and Knowing.

We went to eat in while waiting for the next show to start.

After movies, he sent me home. we had subway.

I took this picture when Shawn wasn't around, and I felt really lonely without him. I had to eat Subway alone, missing him. And that day I had him with me so I took a picture, i mean i took pictures of him. He totally slimmed down so much with the help of fat burner pills with lotsa excercise!

The day was okay but it got worse at night.
I realised that the whole day he don't hold my hands, don't hug me much and don't kiss me. I was the one doing it. I felt that he was unwilling and he wanted to leave my house early.


I let him go and texted him, why didn't he do all those things. He said he felt different the moment he came back to Singapore. He's changed to another person, more independent. I asked him if he still love or wants me. He said he dunno.

I was so upset that I kinda screamed and cried so loudly on the phone.

Why Shawn?
Why is this happening?
We're okay before you left, Shawn.

I was crying so badly that he couldn't even understand me. That moment seriously felt like that last time he wanted to break up with me like out of a sudden. But the other time, after 10 mins or so, he called me back crying that he wanted me back.

I tried to calm myself and think, I straight away tell him that I'm breaking up with him since he don't want me anymore. Whats the point of wanting someone when he don't even want you anymore.

He then say he don't wanna break things off like this. He will meet me on Monday which is yesterday.



Right.. so he didn't call back after that when he said he will call me after he reach home.

He asked Tiara to call me to check whether I'm okay or not.

Talked to Tiara and I felt better though.




The whole night I couldn't sleep. I stayed up till 430am! then I slept and woke up. I dreamt of him, not wanting me anymore. I woke up in the morning and I want to feel like everything is okay but its not.

We always solve our problem on that day itself. But this time it didn't happen.



Monday

Went to work as usual.

I was down and all. People could see it. I couldn't stop thinking bout whats gonna happen.

I couldn't eat at all.

Waffle 1/4 eaten in the morning.
1/2 eaten pasta during lunch break.
1/8 of tau hway eaten during dinner.

I didn't even felt like eating dinner. I was freaking scared that the moment is gonna come. When he was reaching my house, he called me and told me to bring down his roller blades and fishing rod.

And clear enough, the breakup was gonna come.

I left my tauhway on the table and went to get his stuff.

He came, I went downstairs to meet him. We didn't even hugged. we went to mac. He passed me things he bought for me from China. Make up brushes, eyeshadows, mascara and the chicken blood jade. He bought his drinks and came back and started telling me he's sorry that this happened. I couldn't remember what he said, but I was scared shit! He say blah blah blah then he reach out his hands to me with his palm facing upwards and asked,

"Friends?"

I had no choice but to agree with him but I started crying.

Mac is so not the place to breakup! I was already tearing by then ok! Then I was like,
"Can we go somewhere quieter where nobody can see me cry??"


we went to the fitness corner downstairs of my house and talked.

I don't wanna elaborate much.
I cried. He didn't.
Asked him for the reason why he is feeling this way. I think he's confused bout why he is feeling this way too but one thing for sure, he wants freedom now.

As for me, I still don't understand. Our 5 years can't be compared to his 1 month away from me. I guess he enjoyed more without me now with his schoolife and db. Everything's been going great for him.

We had our last several kisses. We had several hugs.

I'm glad our breakup didn't end like shouting at each other and stuff. I went home happy.

I got home I asked my Mummy, " Mummy go food or not? I want to eat"

I'm surprised that i could eat after the break up and I had a great sleep :D My heart ached but i guess it's the best for us. and I don't wanna beg him to stay with me cos he don't even want me anymore. What for?

I just know that for all this 21 years of my life, he's the only man that I loved so much that I would give everything. We grew up together for 5 years, watching each other grow from a teenage to a young adult. He can read me like a book. LOL. Thats what he always says. I enjoyed these 5 years with him and I will always remember that he used to be the best boyfriend ever.

Always never fails to send me home even though he's darn tired.
Always apologise even though its my fault. (I know I'm nasty la!)
Always make me do his nails and eyebrows cos he wanna look good. (Now he knows how to do it and he's doing a better job than me. Way to go Shawn)
Always say he love me before hanging up.
Always help me to finish my food when I cannot finish. (help me jian fei leh. all the fats go to him)

Lotsa things la.. if i mention all, it'll take days!


Anyways, Thank god I'm still 21. WAHAHAH! Now I'm 21, single and not available at the moment. It's been freaking 5 years attached and I've been really faithful to the man I loved most. Too bad. Being faithful and a good wife material doesn't stop breakup from coming to you.

So yea.. Girls out there. Enjoy while your youth last.



****

And to you Shawn, enjoy your freedom.
You'll always be my baby. Thanks for everything you've given me. I had the best 5 years of my life.
Thank You.

****

"So.. This is over?"

I woke up and the first thing that went to my mind was,

"So.. This is over?"

He didn't shed a tear last night.

All these 5years mean nothing to him?

I still don't understand why he broke up with me.

Monday, April 20, 2009

i don't like weird feelings

It's just no point hanging on when he doesn't want me to be in his way anymore. No matter how tough it is, I still have to let go. No matter how much I still love him, I HAVE TO LET GO.

No point hanging on when he doesn't want me.


The break up was simple i guess. No nasty shouting at each other but we just talked.

This is my 1st ever break up. Have I handled it well?



Omg. i don't know.

Can I still call and sms him?

Will it be weird?

I feel weird not having him around.


But, i guess it better for us this way.

bits and pieces or our 5 years

The things we do.
The things we shared.



Thanks for everything.

this is so true

"having being fufilled his hunger for intimacy, he now feels the hunger to be independent, to be on his own. enough of this needing another person. he may feel he has become too dependent or may not know why he feels a need to pull away"

Sunday, April 19, 2009

a sweet message from a friend I knew online

Received a offline message from a friend this morning....

~* Baby, thanks for your call this morning..i wish i were there too.. *~ said:
gal, congratulations for making it thru! all the best to u and shawn...shawann forever!!!!!!love yeah..hugs

How sweet.


Thank you so much.

Yes. I made it through 1 month plus.
Never knew I could do that.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Camel Sex

A new army captain was assigned to an outfit in a remote post in the Afghanistan Desert.

During his first inspection of the outfit, he noticed a camel hitched up behind the mess tent. He asks the sergeant why the camel is kept there.

The nervous sergeant said, 'Well sir, as you know, there are 250 men here on the post and no women, and sir, sometimes the men have 'urges'. That's why we have Molly The camel.'

The captain says, 'I can't say that I condone this, but I understand about 'urges', so the camel can stay.'

About a month later, the captain starts having his own 'urges'.

Crazy with passion, he asks the sergeant to bring the camel to his tent.

Putting a ladder behind the camel, the captain stands on the ladder, pulls his pants down and has wild, insane sex with the camel.

When he's done, he asks the Sergeant, 'Is that how the men do it?' 'No not really, sir.


They usually just ride the camel into town where the girls are.'

Thursday, April 16, 2009

GO TO THE EXTRA MILE

Happy 4th Anniversary...
Eh? wait... isn't it 5 years++??

Well, you guys got it all wrong. It to Charmaine, Sijia and me!

I was really surprised to received a message from Charmaine saying that today is the first day of school 4 years back and its our 4th year being besties. :D AW.... Isn't she sweet"??
I LOVE U GIRLS! oh man.. now I miss school so much!

****

I do not have anything to blog on this past few days because, it is work and home, like a routine. Boring but its a very carefree life. After work just head home and you have nothing to worry about at all. I think that is the best thing of my job. :D

And you know, no boyfriend = no worries. I can go anywhere I like. HAHA!

****

Talk about work.

Today I specially delivered this lab order eyedrop to the patient's house. What happened was.. The patient called up several times to our pharmacy to make a lab order of ciclosporin eyedrop, however, nobody ever picks up the phone(my colleagues should know why). She came to the pharmacy at almost 5pm to get her daughter's medication. The lab closes at 6pm but they refused to do because they just cleaned the clean room and I think they don't want to accept anymore lab orders and blah blah blah.

It kinda sucked.

The patient's daughter is a down syndrome kid. She is so adorable when she and her mummy came to counter 1 to get Q number and she likes to play with the bell. I felt really bad that they had to come back another day to collect at and they live all the way at Ang mo kio. The mother claim that they have to visit other hospitals too due to her daughter's illnesses. If I didn't hear wrongly, the lil girl has cancer too.

I felt really bad you know. So I told the patient tomorrow(which is today), "Alright. I will meet you at AMK station to pass you the eyedrop". The patient was like "Thank you dear, Thank you so much".

And today, during work, i kinda regret leh. Keep thinking why did I tell them i could send it to their place due to the laziness. I travelled all the way to AMK and called the patient. Waited for quite awhile and the mother and the lil girl came across the street, smiling and waving to me. :D I passed the eyedrop to the mother, she repeated, "Thank you dear, Thank you so much" while grabbing my hand firmly. The lil girl said thank you too.

It made me smile and I didn't regret sending it all the way to AMK just for them.

Go to the extra mile. HAHAHHA!

****

WEIRD PATIENT

Yesterday I encounter another weird patient.

This malay aunty, she came to get a Q number so I issued 3074 to her. She keep standing in front of my counter and wouldn't leave and she kept botehr MEI MEI too. Mei Mei pro, she totally ignored her and served other patient. Mei mei quite fierce sia. Anyways, I don't understand why she still wouldn't leave.

Finally, she left.

After a while she came back and said, " Can you give me a new nuumber?"

I went blank for a moment and replied, "A new number? Why?"
I was puzzled, that was the most strange request I ever got.

She said, " I just don't like the number. Give me a new number. I can wait"

Fine la. I gave her a new number, 1014.

She said, "This number even worse, I want my old number".


????????!!!!

Nevermind. I forget about it.


She then came back bothering mei mei and stuff. mei mei continued to ignored her and when the aunty try to reach her hand out to touch mei mei, MEI MEI PUSED HER HAND AWAY!

SIA LA! I nv do that to a patient before!!

The patient was like how can you do this. I want to complain you blah blah blah.

Mei mei then pulled her staff pass her put it right in her face and tell her, "My name is Mei Mei"

*APPLAUSE*

Power sia! Ah Mei de wei li!


Then Yati was the next victim.. She called the patient to tell her that she have to go to another pharmacy to get the injection. She started talking to her using her left hand.
The patient then said, "WAIT! Don't use your left hand. I can wait but you use ur RIGHT HAND."

ALAMAK!


Really psychotic leh.

????

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A cute young man

I noticed him because he came to my counter months ago and bought 15 bottles of fleet enema(I hope its not for him)! LOL! Well.. you know my pharmacy have all sorts of old man but young good looking guys which is why I noticed him. He comes like once every month or something.

He's got the looks. Not exactly like very handsome but he had this unique look. Spot him quite a few times. Hmm.. I hope we can see more cute guys in the pharmacy and by then, I woudn't mind being at Counter 1 every day!

Muahahahahah!

ya la.. I fa qiao can!

****


My boyfriend

I have no idea where the hell is he now. He did not contact me ever since 14th April.

"Hey dear, Thanks for telling my mum n all. Wont overspend. Now gonna keep laptop cause tomorrow morning check out so laptop gonna put in the lauggauge. Then will sms u the details tomorrow. Love u baby. Coming back in like a few days. Hahha.

PS. I lost 8 kg. Now only **kg. Love u"


That was the last email.

Did u see the tomorrow? Yea. ever since last week till now its tomorrow and tomorrow. He didn't sms me or anything. I dunno where he is and what is he doing now.

8 freaking kgs! HE LOST 8 kg!! I can put on weight. But losing weight for me its hard because I'm lazy. I've been running for the past 2 days. I hope I lose some weight but I don't think so. Today wanted to go running but by the time i got home its already 8pm cos I went to walked around AMK hub and then back to BP plaza to get some stuff.

I'm so tired. My feets are tired from all the walking and my muscles are aching too. So I guess giving me a break for one day should be good. Tomorrow if I got time, I will run. :D

It almost 11pm and I still feel FULL and BLOATED cos of the late dinner. Shucks.


I bought the latest CLEO mag! YAY!! I flipped thtough to see pictures. Later I will read. The winner of the bachelor IS HOT! *yummilicious

SHAWN.. IF YOU DON'T COME BACK SOON, I WILL HUNT FOR NEW BOYFRIEND BOYFRIENDS!


I didn't know I typed so much. Thought I said I have nothing much to talk about? Oh well...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

The same old thing, I wanna lose weight!!

Just now I went out for a run with my Mummy. I ran the same route I always do and I never stopped. Usually I would stop a few times to catch my breath, but today, I didn't even stop.

Good Job Sueann.

I hope I lose a few kgs by now. :D

My boyfriend just told me lost friggin 8kg OK!!!! 8 kg!!! If I lose 8 kg, I'll be so happy cos I'll be 40kg++. I want I want I want! Too. I do not have that determination cos I am always tempted by food. I had chocs just now. Oh man... He is so determined to lose weight. GOOD FOR HIM! I hope he won't disgust by a HUGE girlfriend waving to him, welcoming him back. HAHHAHAHHA!

I havent seen my boyfriend on MSN for days but he dropped me 2 short emails. This boy if pretty busy. Hmm.. I wonder with what? He told be he went sight seeing and shopping. And, he's going to Beijing soon and soon enough, he'll be back in Singapore. He kept telling me he will tell me the flight details tomorrow. And even since saturday, its tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow...

I'm pretty excited bout him coming back. But, I would feel weird. Cos I lived without him for 1 months plus and now he's coming back. I can't really remember the feeling of hugging and kissing him.

Anyways, today is Tuesday...

Still have Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and then SUNDAY!

can't wait!


Suriani's bf went away for 2 weeks and he's coming back tomorrow, earlier than my boyfriend. SO GOOD OK!

Okook... I TAHAN!

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Good Friday

Blasting songs in my room and typing this post. Felt so good to just sit down and relax while listening to some of ur favorite songs and nobody is here to disturb you while you sing along. I hardly get some time alone in my room cos I share room with my sisters and they will get irritated if i sing or play my music too loud. Damn. I always wanted a room to myself.

Shawn is coming back this Sunday. I can't wait for him to come back to me. I missed him to much taht i had weird dreams just now. Anyways, to keep myself not to miss him so much, I've been working and going out with friends for shopping, movie, club and dinner. It was so much fun spending time with my girlfriends and I liked it. All the shopping, dinner at restaurants. I loved it, especially clubbing! LOL.

I like clubbing with a bunch of girls then we will just dance after drinking liquor. I remember when I club with my boyfriend, it turns out to be weird. LOL. Cos he'll actually become my body guard so it kinda restrict my dancing. LOL! I hope he don't read this... :P

This coming weekend I wanna club. I don't care!! I stayed home on sat and sun. This coming weekend is a MUSt to go out and party! :D More liquour and more dancing girls! :D



My Good Friday was a pretty good one. I wore my new F21 top and shorts. I can't resist wearing new stuff. I remember last time my mum always nag at me when I wear my new clothes after I just bought it. She will always say "Leave it to Chinese New year la!". -_- Like she does that too! I think she goit tired of saying that and stopped. hahahah!

Daddy weren't working so fetch Mum and me to Chinatown for lunch and dessert. :D Lunch we had Chinatown famous yong tau foo. Very tasty. Unlike other stalls, you have to dip into the sweet sauce or chilli cos its too bland, this stall itis so tasty that u don't even have to dip the sauce they gave you. :D



I bought a Baby Phat sleek handbag from OG and got discount. I totally LOVE BABY PHAT! I didn't know its avilable at OG. Now I can buy more. I saw some of the bag I love. Baby Phat is not like Gucci, LV or Coach, I find it more sleek chic designs. TOTALLY LOVE! :D

Headed for some Dessert. Sesame and Walnut. Yummilicious!

Mummy wore the top from F21 I bought her for her 50th birthday. a bit budget la. cos no money. wanted to get something more pricey but i'm really broke.

Daddy

Handsome 50 years old papa!

drowsy and weird dreams

I just woke up feeling so drowsy. I've never felt so tired in my life, its like I headed to clubs and came home in the morning to and and wake up that kinda feeling. I woke up and felt that I've been to soooo many places but actually these 2 days I've been at home and I dreamt that Shawn came back. I kissed and hugged him so much but at the same time, I became lesbian or something and there's this girl who started kissing me. oh my.. Must be all the Gossip Girl, Desperate Housewives and Ugly Betty I've been watching since last night.

Oh man.. But kissing and hugging Shawn felt pretty real.

I guess I missed him too much which explains the dream.

Haven't been eating much either. Survived on breads I found on the table, cereals and energy bar. Now, I'm all washed up. I guess I'm gonna head to Subway and get something healthy to eat. I know its still bread again but i don't care. I'm craving for some veggie. Then probably starbucks after that? And I need to go shape my eyebrows! my god.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Double birthday celebration

I can't believe that I am staying at home on a Saturday night. -_- Worked this morning half day and headed home. Was gonna meet Mei Mei and Boon Yen to go Tampines 1, the new mall with lotsa shopss, however, it was raining so heavily so we thought we should postone that.

Hmm.. So yea.. I'm stuck at home watching tv and typing away on my keyboard. Took a few pics using the webcam.

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee

Received a very meaningful email from a friend, Charmaine. Read on.. It'll make you think

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. 'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else---the small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you. 'Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.' The coffee just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Friday, April 10, 2009

Nobody But You

LOVING THIS SONG

so addictive!

For the funny version u can go to my facebook profile. LOL! its hilarious!

my buys :D

Bought these from F21. :D








Totally love em!

The kiss

Something bout this picture made me miss him more.
He's coming back next Sunday!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

I'm so broke.

I need to stop spending.
Stop buying from blogshops.
Stop shopping at F21!!!

OHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!


To stop the spending issue, I just put my posb card in my drawer and I'm not going to bring it out.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

o.O

I just finished watch Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

Darn good movie.

Brad Pitt is so good looking when he is young! WOOT!

Club Hopping

Labels: bevlyn, bugis, eat, fhm, high waisted skirts, lifestyle, ruffled top, sakae, shopping, sueann, sushi

Saturday, April 04, 2009

pictures update

Recently my post are filled with words, words and WORDS! Here are some pictures taken for the past few days. :D

Bugis after work. :D

Had Pasta Mania, ma all time fav!

This is Mek mek. She is now in Malaysia shiok shiok. Holiday... SHe balik kampung(i dunno how to spell)

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On April's Fool day, Cosmetics shopping with Shilei and Yiting at Plaza Singapura. A great company to be with!

Me and my high waisted skirt which my mummy say I look super uber fat in it. =(

Goals to accomplish

I just received my dress that I bought from blogshops. I've been buying alot recently cos I really need a whole new change of my wardrobe!

My goals now is to:
SLIM DOWN TO MY ORIGINAL WEIGHT
ADD NEW CLOTHES TO MY WARDROBE

=)

Thursday, April 02, 2009

forgive you? not so fast

Alright. a quick update before i head to bed. I'm totally exhausted because I slept at 2am last night.

Shawn and me are fine now but I have yet to forgive him. We talked on MSN last night and we talked about it and stuff which explains why I slept so late last night. Tears flowed down my cheeks once again but the more we talked, the better things get. =) But I was nasty, I said things that really hurt him so badly that he got so mad and cried. I felt unfair that he could do things to hurt me so I started saying crazy things like this sat i'll head to the club and get so drunk and etc.. I kinda hurt him so much by saying all these. I did it on purpose. I felt so bad now. Anyways, after all the talk, we stopped the arguing.

However, I refused to forgive him yet. hmpf! I told him he must do something to make me forgive him.


Usually when we got into this huge fight or he did something so wrong that it hurts me like fuck, he will come all the way to my house and beg me for forgivness and he will purposely make me laugh and u know la.. I'll laugh and forgive him like this. So, this time should be a challenge for him. He's so far away now. Let's see what he can do to make me forgive him. I've been too easy for the past 5 years.

So yeap.. we'll see.

16 more days till he's back. I hope we can make it through.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

watermelon face

Last night I gave him a call.

I've been thinking maybe I should give in. Our fights usually ends on the day itself because he will insist that we will solve it by the end of the day. So, I gave him a call.

I think he was half asleep. I was expected something like, "Dear!! you called! I'm so sorry for what I did blah blah blah..." But it turned out that he didn't say much and I cried even more and I woke up with swollen eyes today.

Natt was so mean. She call me watermelon face. cos it was really swollen. Till now, i think I can still feel my eyes swollen.

Did some cosmetics shopping at PS with Shilei and Yiting because there is sales! I bought like $70++ worth of stuff. heh heh heh heh...

ok. i'll stop here.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

DELETE

I wish I have a delete button for my brain to remove the images of him smoking and that he has became another person, a person I never knew.
Then I guess I wouldn't be this upset.

I deleted all the wall messages I wrote on his wall.
Its not important to him anyways.

THANK YOU ALL MY GIRL FRIENDS!

I'm pretty much feeling better now.

The credits goes to all my girlfriends out there who cared!!!

Last night I couldn't sleep at all cos my mind wouldn't give up on thinking bout the incident over and over again. Tears wetted my pillow and I cried myself to sleep...

This morning I was feeling fine and trying not to think so much, i had my breakfast and didn't even think about it till I talk to my friends about it. I was still feeling a lil emotional and broke down when I was working early in the morning. I couldn't control my tears and it just kept on flowing down like nobody's business. I tried to hide it but it is so obvious with my uber red eyes and red nose that I was crying! They(you know who you are) gave a group hug which was really nice but it made me cry even more... but Thank you!

Throughout the day, they were like.. Are you okay? lol.

Later in the day work still goes on. Work was busy and it kinda kept me from thinking so much.

After work, I had to wait for the girls to finish work at 7++pm so I used the internet and started talking to T. The conversation made me think and I cried so much. Nvm. I don't wanna elaborate it cos I don't wanna start crying again. Thank you so much T. :D Rose was beside and she was like its okay la.. everything will be fine.. So malu to cry in front of her!

Head to bugis for dinner and some shopping. Didn't get anything though. Probably bcos I weren't in the mood to shop.


S asked me what happened to me after reading my blog. Thanks girl :D I will be _ _ _ _ abit!

M called to meet up this sat. :D you were so sweet to call and say that u feel me and stuff. really much appreciated.

Thank you girls for tagging on my board. Seirously, I felt so much loved from u girls with just a short message on my tag board or asking Are you okay? or giving me a hug or etc..

YOU GIRL ARE AWESOME. I LOVE YOU GIRLS!

Boys stinkS!

Monday, March 30, 2009

why do you have to do this to me

i was angry and frustrated that I blast music from my ipod put on my rarely worn running shoes and went running.

I was so upset.

Tell me what do you see

sigh~

I guess now I know why people break up when one of them is overseas...

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Confession of a shopaholic

Friday, March 27, 2009

I need a break!

This weekend is totally burned. :(

Sat and Sun we have to go back at 9am to do stock.

ARGH!

I need a break.

emotions

missing you dearly after 27 days without you

Its the 27th again.

Without Baby by my side its alright, I think I've grown into a older person now. I remember whenever he don't spend the 27th with me, I'll be angry and won't talk to him and stuff. I was childish, i know. Now I'm all grown up and I'm definitely more understanding now. :D

It's been 27 days since he left and 20+ more days till he's back. I'm half way there!
Sueann, you gotta hang in there!!!


I can't wait to have his huge arms hug around me!!!! =)



Anyways, Baby's been really sweet even though he's like so far in China. We webcam-ed on somedays so that we could see each other. :D I never see snow before so he tried to put his webcam out of the window so that I could see the snow.

However, I couldn't see anything cos the quality of the webcam not so good la. Then he took off his dark t-shirt and started "collecting" snow by streching his arms outside the window but still, I couldn't see a thing.

But it was really sweet that he did that. Thanks Baby! :D

I'm missing you so much baby.

Happy 5 years and 1 month :D

Thursday, March 26, 2009

please name your child properly in future

Ahmad came in to the typist side after receiving a prescription from a patient and he said to Ridzuan,

"Pickachu Datang!"

Then he showed Ridzuan the prescription and both of them started laughing.

I was kapo so I went to see..

The patient's name is...

Pick Ah Chu.




WAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAH!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

A really bad day

Today I had a very very bad day!!

First, I thought I was early so I decided to head down to Bukit Panjang Plaza Macdonalds to get my breakfast. Munching harshbrown while walking to the bus stop and slurpping my Iced cold Milo. I was happy because I'm having Mac for breakfast!!! :D I didn't have time to have the burger so I waited till I reach my workplace.

After alighting the bus, hungry me started munching on my favorite Egg Mcmuffin. Eating half way I was thinking what went wrong because it tasted so different today then I realised that there wasn't any meat in it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There was only egg and cheese in it!!!!! GOD DAMNNIT!! :( I didn't finish the whole burger and threw it away.

I had to serve patients at Counter 1 today and I kept getting irritating patients! Want to check price, number over, need the med urgently cos of their lame excuses and lotsa crap la! THEY JUST KEPT BUGGING ME!!! I couldn't find uncollected medication as easy like I usually do. I had a hard time finding for most of the medications and it was pissing me off!

Before lunch time, I WAS ACCUSED BY THIS PATIENT OF SOMETHING THAT I DID NOT DO! There was this patient collect his Ciclosporin eyedrop which requires 2 hours to make the eyedrop in the lab. Somehow somebody served the patient and send out for dispensing for the pharmacist to dispense(I wasn't aware of it) and while it was in the Q, I had to move the baskets and put in uncollected meds in front and I accidently dropped the basket.

When walk pass, he pointed at me and said,
"where's my basket! 3271!!" in a very angry tone
I was like what the fuck! I didn't even serve him or anything so I asked the poeple inside and the told me that the eyedrop leaked or something.

Fine.

I went back to Counter 1 to get in more prescription and passed it to the typist.

He then pointed at me again,
"She was the one who dropped the basket, must be her who broke it.. SO now you want me to wait andother 2 hours to make it?"

I was like what the fuck! I don't even know a single thing! Looking very puzzled and blur, Iris then saved the day.

She said something to defend me immediately,
"Sir, the eyedrop weren't sent out together and she was holding it all the while so the eyedrop leaked wasn't because of her"

He then keep quiet.


WAHHAHAHHA!

GO FUG URSELF BASTARD!

PLEASE MAKE SURE OF YOURSELF AND THINK BEFORE YOU EVEN OPEN YOUR MOUTH!!!


Thank god Iris saved me. really touched. awww...

After lunch was even worse, I couldn't wait for the day to end!!

The rest of the day was good, I read twilight on the bus and i love that book, I had really good dinner and dessert and just resting and slacking online. :D


I took some boring pics with my F21 earrings from F21. HEH HEH HEH! I got myself matching dress from Tricia's Blogshop! but apparently its too tight! :( nvm.. my mummy will fix the dress for me! WAHAHAHAH!